Forgetting What I Can’t Control

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I had a pretty sleepless night last night. I found myself worrying about many things and as my anxiety built, I became more and more restless. I tossed and turned, my brain too active to calm down. I finally caved and took a couple of Benadryl just so I could get a few hours in. It worked, but I still found myself awake at 4 AM with my mind working 1000 miles a minute.

As I lay there in bed, I began to think about a workbook I bought – “The No Worries Workbook”. Since Amazon delivered it to me about a week ago, I’ve been trying to complete at least one activity a day. Some of the activities have already made me think more about how to manage my worries and what is a truly important worry vs what isn’t worth overthinking or dwelling over.

Let’s face it. There are so many events and issues occurring all over the world. I know I’m not alone in my worries. Many of us are anxiety-ridden these days due to Covid, shootings, inflation, and not to mention, issues occurring in our personal lives.

In the wee hours of this morning, I began to focus more on what I have to look forward instead of obsessing over what I can’t necessarily control.

3 Things I’m Looking Forward To

  1. Bringing a second dog into my home. I’m searching for the perfect pal for my dog and me. In fact, I have an appointment later this week at the Humane Society for a meet and greet. Stay tuned for more on that.
  2. Progressing in my career. Work is going well overall. The feedback I receive is positive and while I do feel like a mess some days (some days are just plain chaotic), I feel like I contribute to my team and company by delivering great results. I’m on track to level up early next year and am going to focus on continuing my same trajectory.
  3. Summer. I love summertime especially now living so close the lake. Most of my weekends will be spent relaxing in the sun. Summer has basically been here for the last month or so and I’ve already been out there several times.

3 Short-Term Goals

  1. Write more. Writing helps curb my anxiety and makes me feel accomplished. Whether it be writing in this blog or journaling, I plan to do more of it.
  2. Cook more. I love cooking and I find that it’s a great stress reliever. I need to bring some new recipes into my life. Keep an eye out for future recipes! I suppose this could even tie into my goal of writing more.
  3. Less phone time. This is probably one of the reasons I find myself having a hard time sleeping. Whenever I wake up in the middle of the night or have trouble falling asleep, I pick up my phone and start scrolling endlessly. Even watching a show or movie, I find myself scrolling away. I’m going to start putting my phone down and disconnect before bed and focus more on what’s going on around me.

Oh, and in case you’re interested in the worry workbook, here’s the link to Amazon. This isn’t an affiliate link. I’m providing it to help out my fellow worriers.


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